I don't know why it takes me so god damn long to notice that my mind and body are telling that something is wrong why does it take the enity that I'm learning to cope with to tell me that I feel wronged and that something has happened that I feel wrong about. I feel like screaming I may end up crying in a heap soon I'm just in shock and I'm annoyed with my self because this feels reminecent of an episode I had once before, the only difference is that I'm not hiding and no one is looking for me, I've only just realized that something is wrong and is keeping me from sleep I feel sickend I'm shaking and I can't understand why I want to call for anyone but it's 5 in the bloody morning and no one would take to my ramblings well. I didn't even notice it earlier or perhaps I did which is why I was grateful to be taken out of the situation. Someone please just tell me I'm being a histrionic, that I'm making things bigger then they really are. Gods I feel a fool.